Little By Little

I'll never deny the fact that I liked you. I really did and I guess I still do. And if i have to admit it to you personally.. I would but I prefer not to. Its not that im ashamed or what,its just that im afraid I would look stupid in your eyes. The mere fact that I don't look good in your sight makes me real sick. All the more if time will come and I'll find out how you laugh to death with your friends everytime you'll see me.. I juz don't wanna be branded as the "girL-who has-a-crush-on-*****"... siyet... I won't be abLe to take that. Well, maybE that's too much or maybe not? But hey, believe or not it was you who caused this paranoia. There are times when I don't want to hear what you say because they all echo one thing-- "i like you"... but when i finally indulge in that idea somehow destiny finds its way to wake me up and make me feel the lashes of reality. It opens my eyes to the sad truth that the love that I thought was mine was never intended for me and never will it be. I was fooled by the idea that you could be "the one". It was only now that I realize that I am totally wrong ... but who cares? no big deal right?

Yeah, no big deal and yet here I am trying to express my emotions... my worthless cries... You wouldn't be able to read this anyway. You won't be able to have even an idea of hoe broken I am now... how worthless I feel... I'm shattered into pieces and right now I still can't imagine how my I would be able to move on...

Don't get me wrong! I'm not blaming it all on you. You - continued below ...